Hi everyone, I have a confession...I really have no idea what I am doing. Honestly. I really wanted to start a Nature Journal Club and had no idea. Luckily I spoke with John Muir Laws and he was able to steer me in a good direction. I still didn't know if it would work so I winged it. Then Covid hit so now I have a website and I am trying to make videos and get myself out there and you know what, I have been stinking at it. Like, in major way. I wanted to make videos every Sunday night. The first one I made got hacked so I decided to prerecord. In those my videos I wanted to show for people to draw from came out choppy, so I decided to do stills. Tonight I recorded a 30 minute demo and forgot to turn on the microphone. For 30 MINUTES I am blabbing away! It wasn't until I replayed it I realized my mistake. In a pinch I recorded a much shorter video and now it won't upload properly. With all of that you would think I would be discouraged and I would give up but here is the secret...
A lot of people are in the same boat. Doing something new you will always hit snags. There will always be moments when you are ready to throw in the towel because "You don't know what you are doing." but you will figure it out. Think about your first job and how daunting and scary it was. Ask any new parent how it is going and if they know what they are doing (honestly no book can ever prepare you for raising a tiny human) . My point is I have done scary, I don't know what I am doing, stuff before and I learned and grew. This will be the same way. I will grow and get better and so will you. If you stick with me we can joke about my rocky beginnings. If I let the fear of not knowing stop me I think this would be a boring life indeed. Your comfort zone is your worst enemy for change and growth.
I also just became the administrator of the Florida group of The Guild of Natural Illustrators...I am not sure I know 100% what I am doing in that venture either so stay tuned!
Oh and if you haven't already check out and subscribe to my YouTube page and I am hoping my new video will load sometime this century.
